Jacobovitz, age

Gili, the youngest son of Adina and Yair, was born on February 19, 1979, in Rehovot. A beloved, sweet and spoiled son was my age, and grew up wrapped in love and a huge embrace of the extended nuclear family. In his early years, his health was poor, his appetite was poor, and his frequent visits to hospitals were not good for him. So did the many drugs he received, damaged the immune system, and weakened it. As he passed the age of five, the period of crisis passed and my age began to flourish, he learned to eat, grew stronger, and made friends. From the moment he recognized the power of Oz, his older brother, he tried to resemble him in everything, and saw him as a role model. Gili was educated in Rehovot and began his education at the elementary schools of Ben Zvi, Shazar and Boker Levy, slowly closing school gaps and third grade when he began to play football, and his acceptance of the children’s team was a great victory, In the junior high school at the Amos de Shalit school, Gili continued to develop and develop, was a good student and continued to make impressive achievements in sports – both at the run and on the soccer field. In a limited family setting, and on a family trip in the United States, a trip from which Amos returned, as the son of a musician, Gili was exposed to And the wonderful wonder of the music from infancy, but only around the age of twelve, following Oz, he also chose a musical instrument and began to play the guitar, first learning to play on his own, and later with Yair, who accompanied him faithfully and served as a stable and supportive back. Most, it should be said, was very critical of himself and of his music, but thanks to his brother and father, who gave him constructive criticism, encouraged him and strengthened his confidence and faith in himself, his personality matured as an artist and as a creator.Two years later, when he reached high school, Music as the main field of study is obvious. Here, in a trend, he was exposed step by step to works of sorts he did not know, expanded his musical education and discovered his creative talent. The complementary courses he chose after school were “musical composition” in which he played guitar and “choir”, in which his wonderful singing talent was exposed. As an avid musician, Gili listened to many concerts in a wide range of styles – vocal music, classical music, ethnic music, jazz, blues and, of course, quality Hebrew music. Gili’s uncompromising desire for perfection was at the foundation of his efforts in every area of ​​his life. There is no doubt that he did not quite appreciate himself, for each time he was surprised again when he received positive evaluations and high grades. My age, they would all testify, was a gentle, sensitive, sensitive boy, yet certain of his righteousness and stubbornness. Anat, his cousin and close friend, described him as “the one who always, I do not know how, the conversations with him would develop into psychological conversations about things I had never thought of.” Gili, who always accepted them all, was not annoyed. , Which made everyone fall in love with him without knowing why. ” Gili’s years of high school were “prosperous” years. His achievements in the field of music – both as a performer, both as a singer and as a composer – exceeded all expectations; His works and performances were highly appreciated and sympathetic, and the letters of appreciation continued to flow. Gili is remembered as someone who always stood at the front of the stage in ceremonies, parties and concerts, and one of his two classic works, won the unforgettable closing ceremony of the trend, none other than Yoni Rechter, who was a judge in the final works. Personally, Gili’s high school years were also a breakthrough. From a shy boy he became an open boy surrounded by friends, and the order of the dayHis is full of training and rehearsals for activities in “Scouts”; Volunteering as part of the Personal Commitment project in the Geriatric Department of Kaplan Hospital; Meetings and entertainment; And of course he worked hard on his studies and also did not give up reading books. The age of the sea on Friday afternoons with backgammon and the milky, Gili, who loved to eat and talk long conversations into the night, my stubborn and stubborn old age – ‘Get out of the car. “The main highlight of Gili’s adolescence was undoubtedly his trip, in the eleventh grade, with a delegation from the Music Department A visit to the Academy of Music at the high school in Grenoble, France, where they were hosted in the homes of the French students, attended concerts, and A year later, the French delegation arrived for a reciprocal visit to Israel, and in the summer of 1997 Gili completed his high school studies and successfully passed the matriculation exams in the combined track of music and literature. But despite his success in pre-military music tests, it was made clear to Gili that due to his high military profile, he would be directed to a combat force, but his disappointment was bitter, but once he was drafted he decided to realize himself as a combat soldier in the most beneficial way. The way was not easy for someone as sensitive as he was in his diary. On the day he was drafted, July 30, 1997, he wrote: “I just finished the chain of life, and the shots were passed without pain or with special significance because of the uncertainty and the sadness and the confusion that surrounded me. The officer told me: ‘Gil, now you have no choice, you have to say what you want to do in the army and rank three priorities.’ “At first I told him what I always said – ‘I do not know, I really do not know what I want.’ “Later, he writes:” I develop a little fear of people right now, a certain paranoia, fear of different types, negative and strange, but when I look them in the eyes there is nothing to fear. Good things we can ourselves … “In the end, Gili chose the Artillery Corps. After completing basic training, he completed a series of courses, and in order to serve in a significant position and to contribute, he joined the course for squad commanders, but shortly before the end of the commanders’ course, Gili was dismissed because of low grades he received. Between him and his teammates and his commanders, broke his spirit, and in his diary he writes: “Monday. I came home after a big holiday – weeks, and again a disgrace. I try to define my mental state and it is complicated. Black eyes. Hostility from all sides. A deep pit that is very hard to get out of. I am alone in this military world. I have a rejection of everything (or people) and everything (or people). I’m running out of strength to cope with the pain. I feel that I have to cry in order to free my grief. I do not understand why it happened to me. Exactly how it happened. I hate society. Not getting along with her. Apparently I need therapy from a psychologist. … “After another period of selection, Gili was stationed as a sergeant in the Southern Command in Be’er Sheva. Lieutenant Colonel Eitan Avraham, commander of the unit, said: “My acquaintance with Gili was very short, but from my meetings with him and from my conversations with his friends, the symbols of the operations, it appears that his acclimatization in the unit was swift and positive both in the professional and the field.social. Gili demonstrated high self-confidence, professionalism and a very fast learning ability in a short time. I was impressed that he was a serious soldier, ambitious and intelligent, highly motivated and a desire to succeed. Gili told me that he was pleased with his assignment as an operations sergeant and told me that it was for him the “fulfillment of a dream,” and I was also satisfied that I had fulfilled his wish and the fact that I had strengthened the team with a high-quality logo. While he was still at the base, on July 21, 1998, Gil sent his own life, at the age of nineteen and a half, he was laid to rest in the military cemetery in Rehovot, Aunt Anat, who opened her words by reading poetry by Naomi Shemer “Sad to die in the middle of Tammuz” and added: “Gili, your modest and introverted personality did not allow us to recognize the diversity inherent in you And your creative soul. I always knew you were different. Today I understand how different you are-your spirituality, your level of thinking, your ability to express yourself, your interests. You are different in your uniqueness. Painful for the worker who has accumulated so much pain within you – you have struggled alone with difficulties, with sights and harsh words, without sharing or sharing. It hurts me that you saw only this way – a solution. A permanent solution to something temporary. It hurts me that you’ve lost faith in all people. If only you knew how many people who loved you and came to you during the week. … ‘One request to me to you’ – You wrote – ‘Keep going, keep going.’ Like taking the tracks under the train wheels and asking her to continue driving. I’m sure we’ll all go on, with a lot of pain and a wound that will never heal. You deserve to hurt your absence and remember you forever. And from the convoy of the angels of heaven, I beg you, to guard you also, for you are worthy of the guard. “In a condolence letter to the bereaved family, the chief of staff, Lieutenant General Shaul Mofaz, wrote:” Gil was described by his commanders as a responsible soldier, who showed independence and seriousness while carrying out his missions. High for his job, and projected self-confidence to those around him at all times. ” A month and a half after the fall of Gili, one of the newspapers published a list of his son’s “soul-searching” list, Adina: “Gili, we are standing next to your grave and still are not absorbing and still stunned … I decided that my role as a mother is to teach my son what is right and what is not. What I want to say to you is just that you were mistaken, when you considered too much importance in the words and deeds of certain people you met, and you did not know how to put everyone in his place. The most difficult of your parents, your brothers and your friends who love you, you have sinned, because you did not know how much we need you to complete our happiness and live the You’ve brought us all to a different place, from which we have to learn to start living again, without you, and the biggest mistake you’ve ever made to yourself: you thought there was nothing else to live for. You still have girls to love, how many flowers you still have to smell, how much life you still have to live, my age, your penetrating stare at me from your last photograph, does not let me in. You seem to have sent me signals I could not read. A hidden and contradictory view. You look at me straight in the eye, but there is a mystery surrounding your expression. I saw a look of anger and pain and hatred and non-acceptance. … Gili, do not be angry with me for not understanding you correctly, and I will try not to be angry with you for separating me from so sudden and painful, and if occasionally I forget myself and forgetI promise to immediately return to being your loving and caring mother. My dear son, I hope you found the peace of mind you were looking for because his son left a void that we will not soon overcome. “Eight months after Gili’s fall, his friend Liran wrote:” Gili. … I just put your song ‘Why did not you tell me?’ As far as I’m concerned, this song is all about me when I meet you. Almost every day when we sat and played, I made you play the song for me. It was a time of the end of the twelfth century, when we were playing, you played with your crazy head, the nonsense that was typical of you, and the best friend I ever had. … So how did all this disappear? … I’ll never understand why you did it, when you, consciously and horribly, give up all the joys of life … You were a friend, a friend, and maybe the only one I loved right out of my heart. Why did not you tell me? ” Adina’s words on the second anniversary of his fall: “… I know, Gili, that your spirit is hovering in my life, and you find the time to send me messages about you, about Grandfather, and for us, by our willingness to accept them. , Charming, talented and beautiful soul … … misses and loves. ” He wrote the farewell letters that Gili wrote to his friends. Adina collected the book “Gili,” in which there are also excerpts from his diary, as well as the notes of the compositions he composed. Gili’s friend, Assaf Zelinger, also wrote a book in his memory. “Look at the stone and say miss / to the sound of your tender voice Rolling in song / To put your fingers on an old guitar / To read ‘Wake up’ when you fell asleep / To take your quick steps on the floor // To look at the picture and to remember Remember how your body moves in song and dance / The part with the wind / How white teeth are revealed in a smile / How black eyes look intently // “Look at you, look at the stone and the picture, and say loving.” At a memorial service held in 2010, his mother wrote the song “Young Flower”. “A young flower has only sprouted and has already been picked / The fresh / bright green flowers have just begun to bloom / The title has begun to sparkle / Colorful petals / Invite the bees to come / Take them away / and move them on. A young flower was just sprouted and his whole dream was to grow / to brighten his world / to flood his intoxicating smell / to pass on his fruit / and to multiply as he ordered the flowers. Shook his head / chopped off his fruit / and on a rough foot trampled his dignity. / A young flower was just sprouted and already picked up. / All his dream was to grow / In the garden of life. Infants prematurely. / And now the world is blooming up. “/