Goldstein, Eran

The son of Nili and Emil. He was born on 18.6.1978 in Kiryat Motzkin. Brother of Alon and Michal. Even as a toddler, Eran was intelligent and curious. He liked to play the Leggo, imitate and admire his older brother and memorize the names of electronic components he had found in his drawer. His father, Emil, said: “We would spend hours traveling and Eran’s contribution as a small boy in the car was simple. It was an experience for life, and it was only towards the end of the trip that Eran was tired and wanted to go back because he missed the house and his bed. ” At the age of six, Eran underwent open-heart surgery. Following the analysis, an article was published in the newspaper and a television interview was conducted, both of which showed a great deal of personal charm. Eran was an energetic, brilliant and intelligent child, thinking quickly and with a good cynical sense of humor. He had discovered intellectual independence from an early age, and was a confident and crystallized person. He loved music and animals, and despite his parents’ opposition, he raised a dog. “In the second grade, Eran and his friend decided to set up a garden in my parents’ yard, a very mature initiative for second graders, but Eran was very different and much older than an average child of his age. And they bought accessories, land and saplings, and each time came to fill in the gaps, and the sellers in the shop knew them when they arrived at the store and even gave them discounts from the same acquaintance. A leading figure, not a traitor, because he was opinionated, “said Nili, his mother, and as a child Eran was very friendly. And the house became a center for them throughout the day and even in the small hours of the night, he had the ability to create a different and unique connection with each of his friends, and he knew how to manipulate people through manipulation and speech and persuasion. Amazing, “added his sister Michal,” is that Eran knew how to channel people to the right places and above all – he could push the right buttons and choose who to talk about and who did not. “Eran created a common language with each of them. He was a boy and a particularly sensitive boy, and he felt things more intensely than most people. From his early childhood, Eran found it difficult to adjust to formal frameworks and rebelled against them. With Tal and Guy, his friends from the age of six, sometimes went for a walk in the framework of the “Mahanot Ha’olim” movement, but did not always go to work. He disliked school because he did not feel that he belonged, his abilities were very high, and he felt that the education system was not challenging him. According to his father, it was not defiance, “but he just wanted to say ‘it’s me.'” His brother Alon added: “I remember him as a very smart and original child, he always had a special angle of view to look at things … Eran did not like the school framework that was very restrictive for him … and rebelled without any expense.” Despite his opposition to the school, the teachers liked him and showed him empathy. “Eran’s educator loved him despite all his problems. She claimed Eran always did things his way and that’s what characterized him,” his mother said. He often ran away in the middle of the school day to sea or home, until at the age of sixteen he chose to leave high school. His parents knew that if he wanted, he could complete his matriculation exams within six months and succeed easily in any field of his choice. His friends, Tal and Guy, who spent a lot of time with him from an early age, said: “Eran has not exhausted its potentialHe was a genius, one of the smartest people we know, we are sure that if he was alive today he must have been a high-tech manager. Toward the end of the twelfth grade, Eran returned to school only to do his matriculation exams, and even though he was not in classes, he would take higher grades than any of us. ” Galit, Eran’s friend, said: “Eran was one of the smart kids, he had deep conversations from the age of 4. I remember sitting on the swing and he tried to explain to me why glass is liquid and not solid … I, Eran, Gil and Inbar We invented the “garbage group”, we met at a large playground and played catch in trash cans like colors … Eran liked to invent games – he even created the “fickle”, a booklet of creatures that invented a flag and an anthem. … he would record tapes of the science channel … responsible for the satisfaction of the culture … During the high school Eran was not one of the accepted students in the class. The nature of nature, to think constantly and to look for a new meaning for a Beatles song, and he did not like to go on annual trips … Before the army we would meet a lot in his melancholy room … He kept sending me letters to the base, and today, three years later, Reading them and understanding their cynicism. ” Eran’s friend, Haim, said: “Eran was a good friend … We used to walk together a lot, play soccer, play computer games and especially chess … When we were kids we would do research on nature from an encyclopedia, Together we explored how the ants dug holes … During high school the connection between us deepened, mainly around music and chess, and he lived about a minute away from me, so we saw a lot … He was a genius in terms of his perception, Cynical jokes … so maybe I did not take seriously the distress signals that came from him … For me he was a great friend, he was always there when I needed a signal He understood me and we could hear music together without talking, and it’s something that you have with anyone. Bond between us was very gothic and philosophical, loved to talk and walk like Jerry Seinfeld and George – philosophical conversations about nothing. ” Eran liked to talk for hours and voice his views from an early age. He studied the subjects that mattered to him. He learned the computer knowledge from self-delusion, developed chess hobby through the Internet and especially with his friend life. His father said: “Eran also played chess with me, and in the last period even when I tried hard I could not beat him … I heard that he wanted to go to an IDF chess competition.” As an adult, Eran was interested in philosophy and psychology and read many books on these subjects. “Eran was always looking for the meaning of life: the reason to get up every morning, the thing he would have to concentrate on in order to give him the taste of life. … challenge and meaning, and apparently he did not find. … read philosophical books, made mental conversations, attracted people with problems, processes of search and distress, and interest in people who underwent similar processes. … There was a feeling that there was never anything to offer him, nowhere to go… There was nothing interesting and exciting about him worth trying and living for, he was indifferent to everything about property. He had no dreams. If he had a dream, there was something he wanted to stay for. I wish he had a dream! “Daniel, his friend, also said:” Eran did not have any special ambitions. I remember that he told me that he wanted to establish Goldstein Industries, but he neverDecided what they would produce. “His mother said:” Eran always loved to live the moment. “Eran did not dream publicly,” his father Emil added. “He was a realist, I could not see what dreams were … He was very close to me and did not give me I touch him. I do not remember ever having revealed his plans beyond that at a certain time he had an ambition to complete his matriculation exams. “If Eran wanted to do something, he would have done it easily.” “Eran has been interested in the subject of death since I knew him,” testified his friend Daniel. “There was a cynical kind of jokes about death about the end. These were black jokes, we laughed about it. … Eran was so special and unusual from other people. He was a kind of outsider … We were champions in philosophizing about everything: people, relationships, life. Eran read and followed Freud’s book became interested in interpretation dreams. Another book their hair read was The Passion of the Young Werther, a hard-to-digest book. On his twentieth birthday Eran felt old, he was the first of his friends to reach that age. … Eran wrote a lot of songs, most of them were about Ma’ayan. “Eran began to write songs in his notebook in grade 5. He listened for many hours to the songs he loved: he preferred music from the 1960s and mainly heard the Beatles and the Pink Floyd. He had “Strawberry Fields Forever” and did not like to go out to clubs, preferring to read books, watch soccer, learn to play the guitar on his own, walk with his dog, When Aran was thirteen, and the second was two or three years later. We walked by foot from Kiryat Motzkin to Tivon for a whole day and after a few years I heard from his friends that he continued to make long trips. “But most of the day he played with computers, and Tal and Guy would join him. And thought how to improve them and program them better. “In an old sweatshirt and wild hair reminiscent of a scattered professor, Eran looked like a boy who was indifferent to his appearance:” It was his heyday, “said Galit. , Muscular, hair-raising. In contrast to his childhood, in which he was not interested in his appearance. “His room, which was in the opposite direction, still bothered his parents, especially his father, which overshadowed their relationship. His parents and brothers were afraid that he would find it difficult to adjust to the service, because he neglected the frameworks and never persisted in them. But precisely to the rigid military framework – adapted, absorbed it nicely and was satisfied. His family was pleasantly surprised by the change that gave them hope. His father said, “In the military framework, it was different, it was expressed in his responsibility, without us as parents we got involved … He had a clock alone in the morning and arrived on time … If Eran got a phone call he would leave and go to help and contribute.” While in basic training he found it hard to cope with the physical tasks, after which he was assigned to the recruitment office in Haifa as a recruiting agent, and felt that he had come to the right place. Eran chose an open base, close to home, so that his friends and computer would be accessible, “a kind of way to extend searches and thoughts in three years’ time,” his brother explained. He was good in the army and sometimes preferred to stay at the base, even though he did not have to. Friends testified that he looked happy. In his last photograph, he was photographed with his friends in the unit. Eran was very introverted and proudHis inner consciousness shared only a few of his friends, who knew of his deep distress, of the long internal struggle. “Everything you discovered turned too fast to boring,” his brother eulogized him. “Did anyone understand what concentration the war that you were fighting from within demanded of you until you surrendered?” Outwardly, Eran was a cynic, he laughed a lot and his happy face did not reveal whether he was going through difficult days. His parents and brothers kept trying to get close to him, to speak, but Eran pushed them away and shut himself up. He felt like he was walking against the waves of the sea until he had no strength to continue, he concealed well the feelings of non-belonging and the lack of conformity to the framework. Three days before his death, his parents spoke to him from Austria and he sounded very happy, and said that he was excited about the meeting in Eilat with his girlfriend. Eran and Maayan spent three years together, except for periods of separation between them, during which time she remained in his thoughts. His friend Daniel said: “Eran tried to keep Maayan to himself and keep her away from me and from the rest … He wanted her to be his special something … It was such a special relationship, on a different level … … lately he and Maayan were together … Eran was absolutely in love with her. ” For half a year they lived alternately and were closer than ever. On the last day of his life they spent the underwater observatory in Eilat, but during their vacations there were disagreements between them. When Eran returned to Haifa, he volunteered to accompany a conscription in the recruiting center, signed military weapons and the next day took his life. Eran fell during his service on August 12, 1998, at the age of twenty. He was laid to rest in the military section of the “Zur Shalom” cemetery in Kiryat Bialik. Survived by his parents, brother and sister. My mother eulogized him: “My Eran, years have passed since you left … I miss your smile, your rebelliousness, your acumen, your sense of humor, the mess in your room, your argument, the challenges you posed to me, your firm and stubborn opinions on every subject, melody and charisma Yours, just to you. “